You will not come. I waited, all in vain.  
You were in me each time I called your name.  
You do not come. You always are.  
Not "afterward" — you are "forever," near and far.

I waited for you in the outer day,  
while in my very soul you stood and stayed.  
I called you as one calls toward a home,  
yet you were Door and Window, all my own.

I searched in stars, in prayer, along the road,  
while you breathed, "I am here. Step in. Come close."  
I waited for the footstep, the night flame,  
yet you were stillness from which silence came.

I painted you the way a dream is drawn —  
a gray-haired judge enthroned above the dawn...  
yet you, within my speechlessness, were weeping,  
moving as light through me, and never leaving.

You will not come — you are right here, inside.  
You are not on the way — you are the deep.  
You walked with me through all my shadowed side,  
within my silence, and beyond its keep.

You have not gone — you simply will not come.  
You are no Light to rise from distant hills.  
You are not hope, no turn that waits its sum,  
you are the I in whom all wording stills…
